Whenever I write a monthly update, I feel like I am doing one of those pregnancy posts where you say "Week 16: Baby is the size of an avocado! Next week she will be a turnip!" So in fruit terms, I'm guessing we are at about the orange seed mark. (P.S.-I always thought the fruit comparisons were kinda weird. None of those fruits look anything like a child, am I right?)
What does this mean? We are finishing up our homestudy and had our last visit with our social worker, which feels like a big accomplishment. Now we wait for our social worker to finish the homestudy and we move on to the next paperwork step.
This stage feels like a lot of decision making, which I am notoriously horrible at. Don't ask me where I want to go out for dinner, because it will be breakfast time before I decide and you will still be hungry. I'm still struggling with the fact that I have anything to do with the decisions regarding what our next child will be like (gender, age, etc.). That kind of pressure is enough to freeze me into a state of indecision. God has been teaching me that walking in His will isn't always as easy as getting a "sign" from heaven and walking that way. Sometimes it is not knowing, praying, and stepping into the unknown with a heart of trust and obedience. If my heart is right before Him, is He really going to let me step outside of His will? I think not.
So here we are, one month closer. Praying and walking and growing.
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| Can't wait until we get to watermelon stage! |
So beautifully written. I am excited to follow your adoption journey.
ReplyDeleteGod has been teaching me this lately too
"...walking in His will isn't always as easy as getting a "sign" from heaven and walking that way. Sometimes it is not knowing, praying, and stepping into the unknown with a heart of trust and obedience. If my heart is right before Him, is He really going to let me step outside of His will? I think not."